Araz Gray

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he Sword Lover’s Journey

They say one day a sword lover went to his master. The master asked why he had come, and he replied, “To become the best swordsman in Japan.” The master smiled and said, “Great! Now take that broom and sweep.” After the usual struggle, the student insisted that he needed to practice a lot and asked ... Read All


Me and my goals have destroyed me

For over a year, I’ve been just thinking, about everything. So much that people here have grown frustrated with my silence and withdrawal. I have hundreds of pages of notes from all this thinking, though they’re so chaotic and tangled that I doubt anyone else could make sense of them. Sometimes I th... Read All

New Year, New Beginnings

Only a few moments left until the New Year. Since early 2016, I haven’t had a real life and spent almost the entire year in the barracks. But in the new year, I’ll be discharged in mid-autumn, and after overcoming the last big challenge, I’ll move full speed toward my goals. I hope that in the new y... Read All

Feeling Out of Place

I wrote, “At that time, I came to the conclusion that most people around me didn’t like me. This thought consumed me completely. But there was another thought in contrast: most people, or at least those around me, didn’t like each other either. So this wasn’t really a flaw on my part. Yet there were... Read All

I felt cold

I wrote, “Today you came to my dream again. It felt like the day I first saw you. Yet, I felt all the events of these past years. Every moment you weren’t there. You should have been, but you weren’t. You should have kissed me, but you didn’t. You should have wrapped your hands around my neck, but y... Read All


When you have nothing to lose

Aside from the fact that military service is one of the most unfortunate experiences someone can go through, this misfortune comes with a lot of mountains, plains, and dust. Most of the time, you’re stationed in the mountains and open fields, unless you have some unlimited, super-connected hookup, w... Read All

Self-change vs Environment-change

While life is being defined through two markers, a parade in the middle of the room, and boards on the walls, if we consider it as 70 years, we live a total of 25,567 days, including leap years. One could interpret this as every person facing 25,567 challenges in their lifetime. The question is, whe... Read All

Understanding Before Solving

To solve a problem, you first need to understand it, right? But at what cost? When one of the most valuable assets of any person is time, how much and how long should be spent on solving a problem for it to truly be considered solved without feeling like you’ve wasted time? What’s the alternative? I... Read All